Come on. Totally aware that when I feel good I feel guilty. This is the trick my conscience plays on me.
Maybe tomorrow I feel a little worse, so that I silence this sound of guilty conscience a bit.
Wondering why it exists in the first place. It’s rooted in my brain for 4 decades and it’s completely normal to feel this way. I actually have no knowledge of any other feeling I could have at these situations.
I served and I felt guilty. It felt right at that time.
I stopped serving and they want me to feel guilty. They tricked me into a disguised guilt with a quilt, so it didn’t seem so mean at first.
As time passes, this feeling will go away. They were mean. I have every right to be free. Truly be free.